“‘Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.’ Then Moses summoned Joshua and said to him in the sight of all Israel, ‘Be strong and courageous, for you shall go with this people into the land that the Lord has sworn to their fathers to give them, and you shall put them in possession of it. It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.'” –Deuteronomy 31:6-8
Lately I have been struggling with disobedience in a major way. Somewhere between a year and a half to two years ago, God placed a seed of an idea for a novel in my mind. I started to write it, barely. Then I let it sit for a while. I got “too busy”. Then I forgot about it for a while. Then I remembered it, but let it sit for more.
I didn’t have vision for it. I didn’t know who my character was, what the plot line would look like, none of the “essentials” for writing that in my early days of writing I didn’t even care about. All of these excuses at the ready. All of them disobedience.
About a month ago–has it truly been that long?–I promised God that I would no longer let fear hold me back. I wouldn’t let it delay or prevent my obedience to His will on my life. A month later, still not a single line of that book has been written.
I know God has a purpose for what He has put on my heart to do. Whether it reaches one person or one million people, it needs to be done. I need to say “yes” and then do “yes”. Because this is not just about me. We are blessed to be a blessing. I know I have been blessed with the gift of writing, now I need to use it for God’s purposes. Because there are people who need to take up residence in the Kingdom, to take possession of God’s promises, who need my words to help them get there.
“I don’t have time to maintain these regrets” or these fears, or these excuses, or these ifs. I need to obey. Because it is the Lord who goes before me. He will be with me; he will not leave me or forsake me.
You know what else? Joshua didn’t lead the Israelites into a land that he already had possession of. He could have used his own lack as an excuse. I can use my own lack as an excuse, and I have….as long as I believe that I am in fact lacking.
But the truth is I don’t lack at all. Because God says the LORD will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right. God says I may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. God says that everything He has is mine.
So what am I waiting for?